Going from negative to positive, from dark to light, with a rainbow of colors in between.
Sunday, September 15, 2013
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Sunday Social
Wednesday, September 11, 2013
What's Up Wednesday
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Hey ya'll! It's Wednesday and I've been a major slacker, but since it's time for What's Up I suppose I can share why.
First of all, Happy Patriot Day. I hope everyone has a glorious day although I know way too many are not. I'm actually in a so-so mood myself. I always have a rough 9/11, but my thoughts are with everybody out there in America today and I send my prayers and blessings.
This is actually my 1st year out of the hospital on this day for quite a long time. I get very depressed, it has taken me this long to figure out that our bodies and time are in sync, so when a bad time of year starts rolling around our mind picks up on it even if we are unaware of the thoughts causing the sadness. But this year I paid attention because I did become aware of why and when my depression was beginning. And today being Patriot day does not mean I'm free and clear, nor that my emotional stress is over. Today is actually the very beginning. I think I'll make it this time, many thanks to my 5 therapists right now, and I hope all of you find a way for you to make it through too.
On to What's Up in my life. As I mentioned above I have 5 therapists. Yep I am finally facing all those horrible bad things in my life mostly through Cognitive Therapies. Which means I am extremely busy with lots of appointments and deep detailed homework. Taking a look deep inside is very draining. I'm on my 3rd week and I'm more tired than if I was working a full time job, (kind of glad I'm not right now, geez I feel for those who do), also I am adjusting to a lot of new medications and it is totally slowing me down.
So obviously I want to blog. I love to blog. I just haven't made it a priority lately for a few reasons. One I am exhausted right now and two I really am not getting anywhere with my blog. Not where I would like to be and definitely not where I think I should be. This is a real slow process for me. So for now I'm allowing it to be slow so that I do not become overwhelmed. I am thinking of taking it as slow as I feel and blogging here and there but first and foremost to read more blogs about how to actually write good posts. I get a lot of enjoyment out of typing my thoughts and feelings out and hitting those publish and share buttons, but I want you all to get the most enjoyment out of taking the time to read it also.
P.S. Don't think I'm giving up on blogging because that is not my intention. My intentions are to make it the most important aspect of my life outside of myself, my family and my wonderful friends, especially the ones I've met online. :)
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
Self-Hate/Self-Love
Do you like yourself?
All you can do is try to be better. I just realized my problem isn't that I don't like myself, it's that I care to much about what other people think of me. Everyone has faults, I just need to remind myself of that and not worry what everyone else thinks of me. F-it!
My do not like list:
It's about balancing out your weaknesses. If you don't like something, improve it little by little until you get it
right. Stabilize it and don't let it bring you down. You actually like yourself this way, why worry about what others think. If you care it's because you don't like it. So change it!
My Assets:
I am also posting an I Hate About (you) poems at www.magicalwritings.blogspot.com so check it out!
Saturday, August 31, 2013
10 items for $10 dollars
Sunday, August 25, 2013
Super Sunday Sync
Monday, August 19, 2013
Monday Mingling

Sunday, August 18, 2013
Sunday Social
I wake up, get water, smoke (gross), make tea, take a shower, get dressed, drink tea and check email, Facebook and Words with Friends and text my baby Good Morning, do make-up and go on about my day.
Thanks for reading more about me, link up so I can read about you! Have a lovely week.
Monday, August 12, 2013
Sunday Social
I always wanted to work in law enforcement. 1st a police officer, 2nd a probation officer and 3rd a Forensic Scientist.
I like homemade club houses and I was always in charge, lol.
When I was a senior, and boy o boy wasn't I the coolest. I remember I couldn't even use it very often, never had service and needed a suitcase to carry it around. Hahaha :)
I've always really liked Lucky for fashion and Psychology Today for educational information.
5. What is one random object people would be surprised to find in your purse?
I honestly don't think I carry anything surprising. I clean out and change purses so often nothing gets built up in there, and I always carry the bare minimum.
Now there I got the right blog done. BTW thanks to all my recent new followers. Link up with Ashley Lately so we can all get to know you too!
Sunday Social
Hey ya'll, it's Jesyka, linking up for Sunday Social. Haven't been around for awhile and I'm happy to be back! This week is personal and I can't wait to chime it with my awesome personality so here goes.
1.) What are 3 thing you can't live w/o on a daily basis? (Food, water and shelter don't count)
A. My Samsung Galaxy S II Tab
B. My laptop which is broke right now
C. My Dog Tags. If I die I want to be properly identified.
2.) What is your all time favorite book?
I have a couple but Breathless by Dean Koontz is definitely BREATHLESS!
3.) What is something you'd like to accomplish by the end of 2013?
I'd like to get all my stressors taken care of. I need to get my liscense back, buy a car and go back to school.
4.) If you could go back and live any year of your life which year would it be?
1998. I was 17. I would've planned my future better and had less fun because boy I'll tell ya I had way too much craziness going on that year. '97 and '98 was great, things just hindered my decisions.
5.) What do you wish people knew about you that you didn't have to tell them.
I wish people knew how damn sarcastic I am and that I have an awesome, unsensitive sense of humor. I get tired of explaining that everytime something crazy flows from my mouth. LOL
And that's that! Have a great week blogger friends.
Okay so I answered the wrong week, o'well maybe I'll do the right on later. Right now I need to go to sleep. Good night!
Sunday, July 7, 2013
Just A Little Bitching (can I say that)
So my Bitch fit, goes a little something like this. First off today I didn't do Sunday Social. Not because it wasn't awesome, but because I left my old life and let go of my old friends and that's when I had awesome vacation times and I just didn't want to visit them.
Right now I'm kind of thanking the God and Goddess that I have very few friends on the internet so far, none that have pissed me off, and even fewer who actually read my blog. Thank the God and Goddess again because I'm not sure I should publish this.
What pissed me off? Oh lets see, I met a lady a few weeks back and I know we are becoming great buds, hanging out, doing stuff and talking all the time. She even texted me while we were sitting out front in a group of people. Only true friends do that, right. Well I want to know why in the sam hell I just run into her and she invites me over to watch TV, I say no because I just had to watch 5 episodes of CULT to get caught up. I'm TV'd out for now and have things to do like blog. (Which by the way it was going to be a good one)But hey True Blood will be on later if you want to come over. I'm really tired though so I may wait to watch it, and she says no I will keep you up for that.
I don't know how to reprogram my stinking mind about this, should I take it as I didn't hear everything said so I'm reading into it the wrong way. Should I just take as maybe she's only comfortable in her house? Should I just forget it since we have so much in common? Am I being to hard on my friends, letting them go over things that shouldn't matter? I don't know what to do here, I really need help. A girl has got to have friends, right? I can't just let the whole world go, but damn I really feel like it.
Well if you read this, I am impressed. Thank you for listening to me complain about my inability to create friendships. I sure hope I find a way to create some real ones in the near future.
Tuesday, July 2, 2013
Caring
5 for Five

Sunday, June 30, 2013
Sunday Social
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
What's Up Wednesday
1st I need to share that today I was notified that I am a chosen winner in one of the many Blogger Giveaways I participated in recently. Thank you to the Mia @ The Chronicles of Chaos for posting the $10.00 Amazon Gift Card for Jenn over at Party of One's birthday June 12th, 2013. I was the lucky winner of that gift card and I am totally ecstatic. Thank you all for hosting her birthday giveaway and once again Happy Birthday Girl. Birthdays are great, blogging is great, giveaways are great, and winning is ultimately great!
I am also loving writing poetry again. I you haven't already please stop over to my blog Magical Writings and give me a holler and a follow.
And by the way to those that read my Weight Loss blog, I got myself weighed today and since I wrote that blog I have lost another 7 pounds. GO ME!!!
I guess I am going to say this is it for this week. Let me know what you think, I'd love this to become a link-up, but for now it's my way of keeping you informed. Blessings to you.
Monday, June 24, 2013
5 for FIVE

So here's how it goes for last week's: GREEN for Yes and RED for no.
1. Organize poems into 3 prong folders. Share-able Needs Editing, For My Eyes Only. I got them all separated but now I have more to type.
2. Eat no more than 2 Carbs per day with 1 bonus (donuts, cake, etc.) I hate eating carbs, I guess I should specify that by saying grains. I barely ate anything so this was a definite.
3. Edit the About Me and the contact detail on all the sites I use. I did most of FB yesterday and I'm going to make them all the same so it should be easy. Pretty sure I got all of them done. If not I saved it for later of course.
4. Purchase the stock photos I want. One for each blog and maybe one for my web-site but I doubt it. I did not purchase the photos because I decided to wait for my name change, or not. But I did create my own for Magical Writings.
5. Figure out how to turn the edited stock image into a button for my page. I didn't say finish it, obviously this is going to be a baby step process. But I am determined to do it myself. Yep I figured this out, I actually made one for my other blog Magical Writings.
So 4 out of 5 definitely is not bad. Probably the best I've done so far. Last week was a very hard week for me so unfortunately I am not setting any goals this week. When you have Bi-Polar episodes sometimes it's better to just let it run its course. And that's exactly what I am going to do. I have my 7 days of Planner to stick to anyway to keep me focused. Things I will do for sure is deciding what to get rid of before my move and try to get rid of it and typing out any other poems and aromatherapy recipes that are still written in my journal. And maybe coming up with a new, shorter, better name for my blog, but i don't know.
You all have a blessed week, I wish you the best in completely your goals. Stop by again.
Sunday, June 23, 2013
Get Rid of Plant Mold
The first thing I tried was to let the plant dry completely out. I realized the reason for my mold was over watering. I wasn't over watering all of them but of course different types of plants require different care. Anyway that was not working. Next, I removed the molded soil by scooping out the top layer. And then I topped of each plant with new soil and sprinkled cinnamon on top.
Boy did that smell good for awhile. And also it worked for about 2 weeks. I do believe that the cinnamon helped. Also during all of this I have had little flags and rubber animals and a few memento's decorating my plants. I left them out until 2 days ago. When I placed them back into the plants and watered them now today I have a little mold on half of them. I took care of 2 of them. Made a horrible mess but got it cleaned up immediately. This is what I decided to try, and what this blog is about. In a month if they are better I will post this.
First I went ahead and got rid of all the soil, just in case. Then I cleaned the pots and water holders. I went outside and found some rocks. I placed a layer of rock on the bottom of the pot and then replanted with new organic soil. After filling, I watered the dry soil. When I was completely finished I went around to all my beautiful lovely plants and sprinkled cinnamon. I guess I'll find out if it works. I may have to do all of my plants which is fine with me. A really awesome thing that happened is that on one of my plants I had a round pot, it was a layered design. I really thought that it was one pot with a layered rim, but when I transported everything I found out it wasn't layered at all, it was 5 pots stacked upon each other. Totally awesome stuff.
Now it is a month or two later. I have no mold on my plants. I replanted every plant, layered the bottom with rocks, sprinkled Cinnamon in all of them, left all decorations out of them and watered each of them with 1/2 cup of water about every 2 weeks. Now they are mold free. Finally.
Sunday Social ~ FASHION FORWARD
So that's my faves, what are yours? If you link-up leave a comment and let me know so I can read yours. It's the beginning of summer so get outside now and enjoy it. :)






























