Self-Hate/Self-Love

Hey lovies! How are you all doing? It's been awhile since my last inspirational post so today I have got a little self-esteem review from me and a couple of my own quotes to turn that self-hate into self love. This is just the start, hopefully, I will stay true to inform you how well this positive thinking works for me. I probably shouldn't post these thoughts about myself but I just hope to help another person out, here goes nothing.

Do you like yourself?

All you can do is try to be better. I just realized my problem isn't that I don't like myself, it's that I care to much about what other people think of me. Everyone has faults, I just need to remind myself of that and not worry what everyone else thinks of me. F-it!

My do not like list:

-that I drop everything just to please people who have no love for me

-obsessing and stressing

-I sacrific way to much

-don't stand up for myself

-shy around those I don't know

-that I am a horrible cook

-I feel as though I have reached my limit of intelligence

-I can't remember shit

-I'm broken, a terrible hott mess

-that I'm broke and can't buy nice things

-that I've hurt everyone I love

-that I can't go back to saying F-it like I used to

-that I'm not stupid, I wish I was a fool

-that I'm indecisive

-I'm critical

-enabling

-suspisious

-violent

-vulgar

-withdrawn

-impulsive

-defensive

-greedy

-possesive

-sarcastic

-self-centered

-selfish

What it's about:
It's about balancing out your weaknesses. If you don't like something, improve it little by little until you get it 
right. Stabilize it and don't let it bring you down. You actually like yourself this way, why worry about what others think. If you care it's because you don't like it. So change it!

http://www.messianicjudaism.me/yinon/2013/07/19/meeting-a-fellow-blogger/

My Assets:

-honest

-reliable

-responsible

-open-minded

-thrifty

-supportive

-greatful

-positive

-industrious

-patient

-realistic

-courageous

-interested

-clean

I am also posting an I Hate About (you) poems at www.magicalwritings.blogspot.com so check it out!

Get Rid of Plant Mold

I have a lot of indoor plants, and not enough space or window sills. For some reason this winter to spring I got a major mold problem. When I started having trouble breathing I thought about it and started researching ways to get rid of it. I'm going to draft this and wait about a week before I actually post it. I totally have to make sure it works first, lol. So ladies step by step this here is how I got rid of my moldy soil.

The first thing I tried was to let the plant dry completely out. I realized the reason for my mold was over watering. I wasn't over watering all of them but of course different types of plants require different care. Anyway that was not working. Next, I removed the molded soil by scooping out the top layer. And then I topped of each plant with new soil and sprinkled cinnamon on top.

Boy did that smell good for awhile. And also it worked for about 2 weeks. I do believe that the cinnamon helped. Also during all of this I have had little flags and rubber animals and a few memento's decorating my plants. I left them out until 2 days ago. When I placed them back into the plants and watered them now today I have a little mold on half of them. I took care of 2 of them. Made a horrible mess but got it cleaned up immediately. This is what I decided to try, and what this blog is about. In a month if they are better I will post this.

First I went ahead and got rid of all the soil, just in case. Then I cleaned the pots and water holders. I went outside and found some rocks. I placed a layer of rock on the bottom of the pot and then replanted with new  organic soil. After filling, I watered the dry soil. When I was completely finished I went around to all my beautiful lovely plants and sprinkled cinnamon. I guess I'll find out if it works. I may have to do all of my plants which is fine with me. A really awesome thing that happened is that on one of my plants I had a round pot, it was a layered design. I really thought that it was one pot with a layered rim, but when I transported everything I found out it wasn't layered at all, it was 5 pots stacked upon each other. Totally awesome stuff.

Now it is a month or two later. I have no mold on my plants. I replanted every plant, layered the bottom with rocks, sprinkled Cinnamon in all of them, left all decorations out of them and watered each of them with 1/2 cup of water about every 2 weeks. Now they are mold free. Finally.

What's Up Wednesday

Okay so this is What's Up, I have so much energy today that I actually got bored for a moment because I was so hyper I didn't know what to do with myself. I'm guessing that has something to do with the fact that I got very sad last Wednesday and was in bed being lazy for about 4 days. Now I am refreshed and totally energized. I feel like I could take on the world. I can do anything I want to do. Now, honestly I just gotta keep this going and hurry up and figure out what I really want to conquer. I conquered a lot last week, I was getting shit done.

Then me and Jason had  a talk and of course as soon as you talk about feelings and the future, someone has to get all anxious and try to bail. Depressing crap, especially when the only reason you talk about that crap is because he decides to say that he loves you. Loves me but then wants to run-away. Well I think that we got that all cleared up. We decided that if we do get in that lovey mood and say crazy things that we'll know it's in the heat of the moment (not sex people) and we will just not take it seriously. I never did anyway. My heart is in hate mode, which means I am protecting it for now.

Also, What's Up is that last week I got the mole on my lip cut off. I'm going to blog about it with pictures once it is completely healed. Almost there.

Me and My Wonderful Sisters

And my 'lil sis Nakita sent me an invitation for her Bachelor's Degree Graduation. I am totally pumped about it and can't wait for the date. (I better be able to go.) I only graduated with a certification so technically she'll be the first from our family. Go Nakita, I love you girl!

And then I have totally been blogging a lot, obviously for myself. That's totally fine on some of this stuff but I wish I was interesting enough to get at least one follower. I wonder what I can do better. If you are reading this, I would love to hear some feedback in the comments section. At least I always have it saved for myself, that's all that really matters. I have lost so much digital documents that blogging makes it really nice for journaling because it's always saved online. Also clouds are like my digital best friend. I love the backup and accessing from any device. Really awesome. And now I am rambling, blah, blah, blah. I got to go, later lovies!

And She is Born Again, a fresh start with me.

Fresh painted toes, check
Shimmering glow, check
Little black dress, check
High ass heels, check
Fly ass outlook on life, double check

Why is this important some of you might say, but that would be because you do it everyday. Hell most woman get it done by someone else. But for those of us who too often get stuck in a continual rut we forget to do these simple things. I did everyone of them at home. Yep that's right, I painted my toes, I dyed my hair, I looked through my overloaded closet and found new or frequently worn items, like my dress and shoes. No I haven't wore them yet but they are sitting there looking pretty for me, umm, sometime this week? Probably so cause I'm feeling fresh to death. So I'm gonna hook up with a friend and have a much needed night on the town with no men. Wow it feels like forever. ;)

So all you ladies out their that have been sitting at home with your nails overgrown, or your grays straying through, or wearing the same boring t-shirts day after day, month after month, or maybe even year after year, GET UP! Start living your life. Yes YOURS, not everyone else's. We can't live to please others, first we have to please ourselves. Even if you don't go all out, every little bit counts. Sometimes to become positive in life, to stop being mean and hateful, to smile when you go to the store...all you need is a fresh start, with a fresh outlook. ♡

Take a deep breath right now, let it out slowly. Now close your eyes and envision your dreams coming true while you take a few more deep breaths. Now say to yourself, "I am beautiful, I am powerful, I am everything that I want to be." Seriously do it, you will instantly feel a different sensation throughout your body and mind. For the rest of the day, stay focused. Plan out and organize your goals. See what's logical and get busy. You are the only thing holding you back. :D

Stay tuned, stay with me if you are needing a transformation, I am putting my self through this right now, and look what it inspired me to do. With positive thinking we can do anything that we can imagine. I sure hopes this helps anyone going through a drought in their life for whatever reason, could be married, have children, work a lot, been depressed, whatever it may be I send my positive vibes your way. If it worked for me, it will work for you. Questions??? x)

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