Sunday Social

Hello!!!
I haven't done one of these for awhile and I've gotta say the introductions are always a favorite.
1. What is the name of your blog? I have 2 blogs. The first one I started is Reprogramming The Mind, I came up with it because I am in the process of changing the way I think. I feel like it's to long but I can't find anything else that really fits me and what I mainly want to blog about. The 2nd is Magical Writings, it is strictly poetry, and well the way my words flow onto paper is utterly magical. (At least to me)

2. What do you love most about blogging? I love expressing myself however I want without the fear the person (in front of me) will judge. Millions of people can see this and a few will comment and even less will criticize me. I do this for me, so I can look back at my memories.

3. Why did you start blogging?

I started blogging to basically have an online directory of my journal. However that quickly changed as I decided to be more specific in what I'm writing. The longer my blog gets, the more specific I try to be. I'm just not there yet. I hope to figure it out soon.

image courtesy hubspot

4. What is something you'd want to tell someone just starting out in the blog world? Blog about your hearts desire. Also read up on blogging, all the best ways to get yourself out there, and all the cool fun things you can do, like contests, conferences, sponsoring,  co-hosting and whatever else there is. I'm just now learning those things and I feel lost. Blog because it's the awesome, cool thing to do that can't even harm you.

5. Biggest blogging learning experience you've had? It's not as easy as it looks or sounds.

6. What are three blogs you love? World of Psychology A Complete Waste of Makeup Fantastically Average - which I cannot read anymore so the tie breaker with her is Ashley Lately (they were my 1st two personal blogs)

Your turn! Answer the questions! Have an awesome week!

What's Up Wednesday

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Hey ya'll! It's Wednesday and I've been a major slacker, but since it's time for What's Up I suppose I can share why.

First of all, Happy Patriot Day. I hope everyone has a glorious day although I know way too many are not. I'm actually in a so-so mood myself. I always have a rough 9/11, but my thoughts are with everybody out there in America today and I send my prayers and blessings.

This is actually my 1st year out of the hospital on this day for quite a long time. I get very depressed, it has taken me this long to figure out that our bodies and time are in sync, so when a bad time of year starts rolling around our mind picks up on it even if we are unaware of the thoughts causing the sadness. But this year I paid attention because I did become aware of why and when my depression was beginning. And today being Patriot day does not mean I'm free and clear, nor that my emotional stress is over. Today is actually the very beginning. I think I'll make it this time, many thanks to my 5 therapists right now, and I hope all of you find a way for you to make it through too.

On to What's Up in my life. As I mentioned above I have 5 therapists. Yep I am finally facing all those horrible bad things in my life mostly through Cognitive Therapies. Which means I am extremely busy with lots of appointments and deep detailed homework. Taking a look deep inside is very draining. I'm on my 3rd week and I'm more tired than if I was working a full time job, (kind of glad I'm not right now, geez I feel for those who do), also I am adjusting to a lot of new medications and it is totally slowing me down.

So obviously I want to blog. I love to blog. I just haven't made it a priority lately for a few reasons. One I am exhausted right now and two I really am not getting anywhere with my blog. Not where I would like to be and definitely not where I think I should be. This is a real slow process for me. So for now I'm allowing it to be slow so that I do not become overwhelmed. I am thinking of taking it as slow as I feel and blogging here and there but first and foremost to read more blogs about how to actually write good posts. I get a lot of enjoyment out of typing my thoughts and feelings out and hitting those publish and share buttons, but I want you all to get the most enjoyment out of taking the time to read it also.

http://ishouvik.com/5-ways-to-improve-your-blog-posts

Yes what I am saying is I need some tips PLEASE, so for those of you reading I am asking for your tips, hints, advice and criticism. Please comment or email me once you've looked over my blog, and always leave your blog url so I can check out your amazing writings. With that I am going to close out with peace and love and many, many blessings. Thanks for stopping by on my What's Up Wednesday (which will someday be a link-up).

P.S. Don't think I'm giving up on blogging because that is not my intention. My intentions are to make it the most important aspect of my life outside of myself, my family and my wonderful friends, especially the ones I've met online. :)

Self-Hate/Self-Love

Hey lovies! How are you all doing? It's been awhile since my last inspirational post so today I have got a little self-esteem review from me and a couple of my own quotes to turn that self-hate into self love. This is just the start, hopefully, I will stay true to inform you how well this positive thinking works for me. I probably shouldn't post these thoughts about myself but I just hope to help another person out, here goes nothing.

Do you like yourself?

All you can do is try to be better. I just realized my problem isn't that I don't like myself, it's that I care to much about what other people think of me. Everyone has faults, I just need to remind myself of that and not worry what everyone else thinks of me. F-it!

My do not like list:

-that I drop everything just to please people who have no love for me

-obsessing and stressing

-I sacrific way to much

-don't stand up for myself

-shy around those I don't know

-that I am a horrible cook

-I feel as though I have reached my limit of intelligence

-I can't remember shit

-I'm broken, a terrible hott mess

-that I'm broke and can't buy nice things

-that I've hurt everyone I love

-that I can't go back to saying F-it like I used to

-that I'm not stupid, I wish I was a fool

-that I'm indecisive

-I'm critical

-enabling

-suspisious

-violent

-vulgar

-withdrawn

-impulsive

-defensive

-greedy

-possesive

-sarcastic

-self-centered

-selfish

What it's about:
It's about balancing out your weaknesses. If you don't like something, improve it little by little until you get it 
right. Stabilize it and don't let it bring you down. You actually like yourself this way, why worry about what others think. If you care it's because you don't like it. So change it!

http://www.messianicjudaism.me/yinon/2013/07/19/meeting-a-fellow-blogger/

My Assets:

-honest

-reliable

-responsible

-open-minded

-thrifty

-supportive

-greatful

-positive

-industrious

-patient

-realistic

-courageous

-interested

-clean

I am also posting an I Hate About (you) poems at www.magicalwritings.blogspot.com so check it out!

5 for FIVE

It's time to Link-up and share your goals!
So here's how it goes for last week's: GREEN for Yes and RED for no.
1. Organize poems into 3 prong folders. Share-able  Needs Editing, For My Eyes Only. I got them all separated but now I have more to type.

2. Eat no more than 2 Carbs per day with 1 bonus (donuts, cake, etc.) I hate eating carbs, I guess I should specify that by saying grains. I barely ate anything so this was a definite.

3. Edit the About Me and the contact detail on all the sites I use. I did most of FB yesterday and I'm going to make them all the same so it should be easy. Pretty sure I got all of them done. If not I saved it for later of course.

4. Purchase the stock photos I want. One for each blog and maybe one for my web-site but I doubt it. I did not purchase the photos because I decided to wait for my name change, or not. But I did create my own for Magical Writings.

5. Figure out how to turn the edited stock image into a button for my page. I didn't say finish it, obviously this is going to be a baby step process. But I am determined to do it myself. Yep I figured this out, I actually made one for my other blog Magical Writings.

So 4 out of 5 definitely is not bad. Probably the best I've done so far. Last week was a very hard week for me so unfortunately I am not setting any goals this week. When you have Bi-Polar episodes sometimes it's better to just let it run its course. And that's exactly what I am going to do. I have my 7 days of Planner to stick to anyway to keep me focused. Things I will do for sure is deciding what to get rid of before my move and try to get rid of it and typing out any other poems and aromatherapy recipes that are still written in my journal. And maybe coming up with a new, shorter, better name for my blog, but i don't know.

You all have a blessed week, I wish you the best in completely your goals. Stop by again.

Jesyka Lynn

How I Lost 20lbs

Hello everyone, I need to write a blog. It’s kind of been a little while since I have taken the time to do so. I have a lot of things planned but today I am going to do one that I just came up with yesterday. In the past 5 months I have been trying to lose weight. And Yay! for me I did. I technically lost 18 lbs. So that is amazing. Not only did I shed the pounds, I lost inches and 2 dress sizes. I am totally stoked about it and everyone I've known all that time keeps asking me how I did it.

Honestly I barely tried in my eyes. There are some things I cut out and also things I added in and I plan on sharing with you a list of things I did and didn't do. First though please realize what worked for me may not work for you. With the exercises (I barely worked out) talk to your doctor before starting any exercise routines. Here is a before picture of me. It was actually taken last summer but in December I was still about that size.

So what did I do?

o    I discovered MioEnergy, if you do not know what this is it’s a flavored water enhancer. They have regular, Fit, and the Energy brand. I use all of them. Energy in the morning and the others during the day or in the evening. Mio has 0 calories and 0 sugars. The only bad thing is that it is sweetened with Sucralose.
o   I cut the Mountain Dew out of my life except for an occasional 1 or 2 each month. No more drinks with High Fructose Corn Syrup.
o   I drink Unsweetened Green Tea or Unsweetened Coffee whenever I feel I need a caffeine boost. If you don’t drink Caffeine, you can always use Decaf.
o   I only allow myself the occasional donut, cake, cookie, etc. I mean like 1 time a month. And I do not bring junk food home from the grocery store.
o   I barely eat Carbs, yes they do produce natural energy in your body and you do need some every day but I don’t think you need a lot. I still eat Carbs, a little rice, potatoes and pasta but when it comes to my sandwiches I eat the innards, like lunch meat and cheese without bread. I just roll them up together with a pickle in the middle and eat it like that. Also when I do eat bread it is whole wheat. Also try to use a good Turkey or Ham lunchmeat instead of Bologna.
o   Instead of candy now I eat freeze pops. I don’t know if that’s better or not but I do it most of the time.
o   My favorite…I increased my fruits and vegetables intake. This was the best thing I did. Remember to fill you dinner plate up half way with fruits and/or vegetables. If you are eating Carbs, only eat a small portion of 1/3 of the plate. And the other 2/3 or so will go to your meat.
o   I have always eaten a lot of meat. Some say Carbs give you the best energy but I couldn't live without my protein. I love red meats the most. Not much Chicken or Pork in this diet but the thing I added more of this year was fish/seafood. It is more lean that anything else and has a lot of wonderful health benefits that you can get only from eating fish. So for me it’s fried Tilapia or Catfish and one or 2 cans of tuna every week. Don’t forgot a lot of nuts and Peanut Butter, mine is sweetened with Honey instead of Corn Syrup, that yucky stuff will add pounds not erase them.
o   Yes in the last one I said fried. The thing I did to fix that a little was convert to nothing but olive oil and I even use less than I did with the vegetable oil.
o   I do not eat anything deep fried or breaded that you warm up in the oven. Processed meat is the worst thing ever.
o   I bought a shake weight. My arms were the first thing I truly noticed going downhill. For a while I didn't touch it so I am honestly going to estimate and say during these 5 months I probably used it on average once a week. That’s it and it was easy.
o   Again with this one, occasionally I did 50 squats. I am horrible with exercising and can’t remember, can’t make time or whatever so I probably did them on average once a week for the past 5 months.
o   The only thing I did consistently is walk. I walk between 6 to 10 miles each week. That’s really not a lot but I wasn't doing it very often till this year. I don’t have a car at this time so this walking I have to do for the most part but even though I have to walk I still take my normal walks of 2 or 3 miles a week as my exercise. And when I do get a car I live a ¼ mile from the shopping center so unless I’m buying more than $50 worth of stuff I’m still going to walk it.

So there you have it, this is how I lost 20 lbs. I didn't follow a diet or exercise routine. I made a lot of mistakes throughout this time but I picked up where I left off and fixed my lifestyle. I used to be super skinny but things happen in life and we all get messed up and confused. Don’t worry about it; just do the best you can do. Even if you need to add or subtract one thing at a time to live a better life, then that’s how it has to be done. Also remember that if you are on any medications, birth control, depression, blood pressure, etc. they may be the cause of your weight gain and you may not be able to shed those pounds. Remember to accept and to love yourself no matter what you look like because most people especially guys, they don’t notice it like you do and they always love you no matter what. So be sure to love yourself.

And here is a picture of me taken approximately 2 weeks ago when I found out how much weight I lost. I dropped 2 sizes and the cellulite I was starting to get. My belly is still chubby but I no longer have the flubber and my legs don't jiggle when I walk, lol.

Thanks for reading my post. Please comment, share, like and follow me. Visit my Web-Site at www.jasmineraynewaxnmore.weebly.com  Blessed Be Lovies.

Holding on or Letting go???

Alright this post is not going to be based on the political correct idea or what you should do, but on what I am feeling I should do. I listened to a lot of crap throughout my life about walking away and letting go when things aren't as they should be. But I don't want to let go ever again.

Here are a few examples of CRAP I read, and have even shared on Facebook. And yes in the back of my mind and thinking of my heart, I have been totally for this method.

via Positive Quotes on Facebook

(nothing against this page, I just needed a pic)

Yes there is definitely a limit on how much and how bad a person should be able to treat you but honestly for the last however many years I have been hateful and sad, I walked away from a lot of really good people for making mistakes. I keep doing it, every time someone makes me mad, or hurts my feelings.

Now that I am trying to completely start my life over, and yes I hope I find a few great friends, at this point I haven't. Basically I am realizing that if I want to have friends at all, I am going to have to accept the fact that people make mistakes. And yes sometimes they are horrible mistakes. Even I have made many, and maybe some people have walked away from me.

Also I would like to comment on this one. I actually had an experience with this and followed though with leaving all of them behind when my troubles were over. Not fun and to be very honest that's when I started walking away from people who screwed me over. However as I look back and sit here friendless (almost) I am realizing that by living so true to these words that I have lost everyone, including some very important people that I loved dearly.

via someone on fb

The reason all this is on my mind is because I recently had a friend of like 5 months make me completely irate. And for a few days I had to calm myself down. I felt like that person did what they did to intentionally upset me. I have had to realize that it had nothing to do with me, and I honestly feel like it has nothing to do with how they feel about me. I have always told myself that whoever did something hurtful or wasn't there when I needed them was because they didn't care about me, probably no one else, or even them self  But I have realized that may not always be true. Actually it almost never is if I think really hard because everyone I have hurt has always been people I love with all of my heart. It was just a stupid mistake, that had everything to do with me, and almost always ended up regretting but not even all of the time.

And I can finally say that my whole new outlook on how I want things to be is totally working for me. I want to be able to forgive people, no matter what. If I don't want to do it for them that's fine, I'll have to evaluate the situation as I am now and determine my best course of action. Should I hold on to that friendship or should let go and walk away. If I walk away every time I will still be sitting here lonely, losing friends the moment I make them. So this time I'm going to stay, for now. If it happens again I might walk away but everyone deserves a second chance, maybe 5, 10 or 50, who knows. No matter what you have to forgive for your own piece of mind. If not for them, do it for yourself.

via Positive Quotes on Facebook

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Affirmations Video Share

Today I watched a video on You Tube uploaded by Ivy Wind. I love watching her videos because she is so spiritually uplifting. If you haven't read my blog before it is called Reprogramming Your Mind for a reason. I used to be very dark, in an extremely sad place. So what I mean to express, don't know if I do, is how you can change your life from dark to light. And this video is about Positive Affirmations and how you and only you can turn your life, your thinking, and your feelings around to no longer be in a dark, depressed, slump. I want to share it because this is how I managed to become a completely different person. Thank you Ivy for sharing this video.

A Love Letter

I have been too upset and stressed lately to actually write about anything, but I thought I would share my letter to my ex about how I feel.

I don't know when it happened, it just did. I have a right to be selfish, for years it was me and noone else. That wasn't what I wanted. I wanted to be an equal priority  I feel I was for awhile, and it was great. We had everything together here. Your kids, and mine were next. Supposedly. But at some point, I stopped mattering to you. Anything I wanted was no longer an option. You can call me jealous if you want. That's not what it is at all.I want your kids to come before me. I'd rather be equal to them, but when the fuck did I become last? I no longer matter at all. In my eyes its you, my kids, your kids, close friends and family, and then others who shouldn't matter. If I put someone in that last category for you, you should respect my wishes since I should be #1. Your immediate family comes first, and I am your immediate family. If not, when did it stop? When did you stop caring? I became less important and then you acted like a fool checkin up on everything I did. You smothered me and you no longer cared for me. And now, more than ever, I have this fight in me. And I am trying so hard, so fucking hard and you keep leaving me hangin and shutting me down. How much more punishment do I have to endure. This year has been hell. So damn stressful, nothing but a fight. And now I feel you owe me. I bought the Van the least you could do is 1.) pay me for your half, or 2.) Give me a ride when I need it. I offered you $20.00 for gas and you can't even do that, even though I bought the vehicle and the gas. WTF? 

I might have more to say later. Peace and Blessed Be.