Thanksgiving Post 2013

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Happy Thanksgiving!

Today I am going to do a GRATEFUL for post. So what is it that I am grateful for?

I am grateful to be alive

Grateful for the relationships I have

Especially the one that just begun

And the ones I fell far from and was found again this year

Grateful for the roof over my head, the one that is all mines

Grateful for all my therapists that have helped me find myself this year

Grateful that my children are safe

And grateful that they love me no matter how far away

For all the people who have stood by my side

That I made it a year being single, it was kind of a goal of mine and that my ex and I have made peace and can be friends

Thankful that I haven’t lost anything this year, my bad I lost an important person but I’m still grateful

Grateful for the VA hospital

Thankful I found a religion that works for me and that I’m not afraid to share it

Grateful there are so many good songs out this year

And with that the TV shows I watch are killer, glad I have that entertainment

And well mostly I am thankful for being ALIVE!and blogging!

Now I wish to know what it is you are thankful for. Have a wonderful THANKSGIVING!!!

What's Up Wednesday

Alright so today is my What’s Up Wednesday, where I tell you my juicy, lol, life details.

So what’s going on? I guess a whole lot. In the last few months, mainly this year I have evolved into a different person. I am no longer the shy, quiet girl who keeps to herself. I was when I started this blog but no longer am, so unfortunately the time that I had to myself that I needed to fill with blogging is no longer there. Therefore, I no longer have the time I want and need to blog. I now have a few friends, and a boyfriend (yay!) and balancing them all out is kind of hard to do. But since I love them all, and I love you (blogging) I have to figure it out.

In a way, for a while, I kind of gave up on blogging. I started paying attention to numbers, we’ve all been there, and I really feel that I am not succeeding as much as I should be. But I just have to remind myself that mainly this is for me, and if someone reads it that’s great, if it helps someone, that’s even better, but if not that’s okay because this is my online journal, my blog, and I write it for me, and I hope, a person in need. I will grow and my blog will grow in time as it is meant to be, not when I want it to.

So with that being said, I am sure I will find the time to write about my troubles, my inspiration to others and one day I will have 100+ followers, for now this is just practice, I will figure it all out in due time, like I have figured everything else out, like finding a boyfriend, someone that I can trust and I feel safe with. And I will make it through these next couple of weeks in this hard therapy that has helped me reach out to others, and grow as a human being so much. This Thanksgiving I am grateful for my therapist for helping me see the good, on the outside, and the inside. Thanks Megan.

Also, Happy Birthday and Deathday to my still born sister Jackie who would be 30 today, I love you mom, hang in there.

And thank you for reading. Please comment, subscribe or follow and let me know what’s up with you.

What's Up Wednesday

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Hey ya'll! It's Wednesday and I've been a major slacker, but since it's time for What's Up I suppose I can share why.

First of all, Happy Patriot Day. I hope everyone has a glorious day although I know way too many are not. I'm actually in a so-so mood myself. I always have a rough 9/11, but my thoughts are with everybody out there in America today and I send my prayers and blessings.

This is actually my 1st year out of the hospital on this day for quite a long time. I get very depressed, it has taken me this long to figure out that our bodies and time are in sync, so when a bad time of year starts rolling around our mind picks up on it even if we are unaware of the thoughts causing the sadness. But this year I paid attention because I did become aware of why and when my depression was beginning. And today being Patriot day does not mean I'm free and clear, nor that my emotional stress is over. Today is actually the very beginning. I think I'll make it this time, many thanks to my 5 therapists right now, and I hope all of you find a way for you to make it through too.

On to What's Up in my life. As I mentioned above I have 5 therapists. Yep I am finally facing all those horrible bad things in my life mostly through Cognitive Therapies. Which means I am extremely busy with lots of appointments and deep detailed homework. Taking a look deep inside is very draining. I'm on my 3rd week and I'm more tired than if I was working a full time job, (kind of glad I'm not right now, geez I feel for those who do), also I am adjusting to a lot of new medications and it is totally slowing me down.

So obviously I want to blog. I love to blog. I just haven't made it a priority lately for a few reasons. One I am exhausted right now and two I really am not getting anywhere with my blog. Not where I would like to be and definitely not where I think I should be. This is a real slow process for me. So for now I'm allowing it to be slow so that I do not become overwhelmed. I am thinking of taking it as slow as I feel and blogging here and there but first and foremost to read more blogs about how to actually write good posts. I get a lot of enjoyment out of typing my thoughts and feelings out and hitting those publish and share buttons, but I want you all to get the most enjoyment out of taking the time to read it also.

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Yes what I am saying is I need some tips PLEASE, so for those of you reading I am asking for your tips, hints, advice and criticism. Please comment or email me once you've looked over my blog, and always leave your blog url so I can check out your amazing writings. With that I am going to close out with peace and love and many, many blessings. Thanks for stopping by on my What's Up Wednesday (which will someday be a link-up).

P.S. Don't think I'm giving up on blogging because that is not my intention. My intentions are to make it the most important aspect of my life outside of myself, my family and my wonderful friends, especially the ones I've met online. :)

What's Up Wednesday

Wow, it's almost 10 pm. I knew I had to write a blog, just forgot it was this one, lol. So I have a lot to say in hopefully a quick but interesting manner.

1st I need to share that today I was notified that I am a chosen winner in one of the many Blogger Giveaways I participated in recently. Thank you to the Mia @ The Chronicles of Chaos for posting the $10.00 Amazon Gift Card for Jenn over at Party of One's birthday June 12th, 2013. I was the lucky winner of that gift card and I am totally ecstatic. Thank you all for hosting her birthday giveaway and once again Happy Birthday Girl. Birthdays are great, blogging is great, giveaways are great, and winning is ultimately great!

So what else is up??? Just been enjoying the nice hot sun rays, hanging with friends, doing some major shopping, finding awesome thrifty items, making candles and aromatherapy salts and oils and totally enjoying the relationship I have right now. For once I'm in one that isn't moving to fast for me. I like it!!!

"I'd fight a bear for you"

My lil sis is having some scary issues right now and I'm worried for her and praying with all my might.

I'm falling in love with blogging but at the same time I am enjoying life outside away from the computer more than I ever have in my life.But at the same time every time I have a problem with any of this computer stuff I am missing giving up on furthering my career in that department, but I am really good at mixing essential oils to provide healthy, aromatherapy benefits. So now I am really trying to put my focus into where my life is leading me.

One place it is leading me is back home. It will be a few months maybe but eventually I will be back in the 1st and 3rd capitol of my wonderful state. God I cannot wait.

I am also loving writing poetry again. I you haven't already please stop over to my blog Magical Writings and give me a holler and a follow.

And by the way to those that read my Weight Loss blog, I got myself weighed today and since I wrote that blog I have lost another 7 pounds. GO ME!!!

I guess I am going to say this is it for this week. Let me know what you think, I'd love this to become a link-up, but for now it's my way of keeping you informed. Blessings to you.

What's Up Wednesday

Wow, I've been thinking about doing this post all week and I literally got caught up in too much crap all day. It's late, but hey it's not past midnight every where, lol. I happened to scroll down my blog the other day looking for something and I was like OMG I totally forgot I started that. So here I am weeks later with a wonderful What's Up Wednesday.

So Jesyka, What is up???
First off I just want to say What's Up Wednesday first appeared here on Reprogramming The Mind with your one and only host muah. That being said I cannot wait til it's possible for me to begin this as my 1st link-up! Yay!
Second, me and my blog would like to wish my son a Happy Happy 7th Birthday! And so on...
With the thought of this one day becoming a link-up I should mention I have been thinking of, and very much so lately, of changing my blog name. I tell my therapist everything and she even recommended it (without knowing it's title already). I shared A Storm and A Desert with her today and now she seems to think I should focus it more on being a blog from a female veteran's experience with a title specifying so. Good point. It's now on my to-do list.
Also today while I was at the hospital I was able to meet with the Writing Group Psychiatrist and share some poetry with her. Just my luck it turns out that they are submitting poems to be published in a book from Appalachian poets. Fingers crossed, that would be awesome. And that's all I am sharing today, thanks for stopping by and reading. Please comment, follow or subscribe.