What's Up Wednesday

Alright so today is my What’s Up Wednesday, where I tell you my juicy, lol, life details.

So what’s going on? I guess a whole lot. In the last few months, mainly this year I have evolved into a different person. I am no longer the shy, quiet girl who keeps to herself. I was when I started this blog but no longer am, so unfortunately the time that I had to myself that I needed to fill with blogging is no longer there. Therefore, I no longer have the time I want and need to blog. I now have a few friends, and a boyfriend (yay!) and balancing them all out is kind of hard to do. But since I love them all, and I love you (blogging) I have to figure it out.

In a way, for a while, I kind of gave up on blogging. I started paying attention to numbers, we’ve all been there, and I really feel that I am not succeeding as much as I should be. But I just have to remind myself that mainly this is for me, and if someone reads it that’s great, if it helps someone, that’s even better, but if not that’s okay because this is my online journal, my blog, and I write it for me, and I hope, a person in need. I will grow and my blog will grow in time as it is meant to be, not when I want it to.

So with that being said, I am sure I will find the time to write about my troubles, my inspiration to others and one day I will have 100+ followers, for now this is just practice, I will figure it all out in due time, like I have figured everything else out, like finding a boyfriend, someone that I can trust and I feel safe with. And I will make it through these next couple of weeks in this hard therapy that has helped me reach out to others, and grow as a human being so much. This Thanksgiving I am grateful for my therapist for helping me see the good, on the outside, and the inside. Thanks Megan.

Also, Happy Birthday and Deathday to my still born sister Jackie who would be 30 today, I love you mom, hang in there.

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5 for Five

Well Happy Thanksgiving my lovies. I can’t believe this year is almost over. Yeah I’m a day behind but I am certainly not missing 5 for Five. So for last week and how I did. Green for completion, red for failure.

Goal #1 – Pack unneeded items, seriously. I did clear out some trash. J

Goal #2 – Arrange my living room with room to stack the boxes since the furniture I sold will be out today.

Goal #3 – Clean my house, thoroughly.

Goal #4 – Finish the Scrivener Tutorial and import my BOS files.

Goal #5 – Buy a new charger for my Galaxy. (It’ll be my 3^rd one, L)

Now this weeks 5 awesome goals

#1 Have a great Thanksgiving, and I hope you all do the same. J

#2 Buy the charger for my Galaxy, not having it is killing me.

#3 Talk to a few people in my family, after all it’s a holiday.

#4 Work on BOS project I’ve got going on.

#5 Blog. perhaps about my holiday. My boyfriend and I are throwing it together at the last minute.

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Thanks lovies.

What's Up Wednesday

Wow, it's almost 10 pm. I knew I had to write a blog, just forgot it was this one, lol. So I have a lot to say in hopefully a quick but interesting manner.

1st I need to share that today I was notified that I am a chosen winner in one of the many Blogger Giveaways I participated in recently. Thank you to the Mia @ The Chronicles of Chaos for posting the $10.00 Amazon Gift Card for Jenn over at Party of One's birthday June 12th, 2013. I was the lucky winner of that gift card and I am totally ecstatic. Thank you all for hosting her birthday giveaway and once again Happy Birthday Girl. Birthdays are great, blogging is great, giveaways are great, and winning is ultimately great!

So what else is up??? Just been enjoying the nice hot sun rays, hanging with friends, doing some major shopping, finding awesome thrifty items, making candles and aromatherapy salts and oils and totally enjoying the relationship I have right now. For once I'm in one that isn't moving to fast for me. I like it!!!

"I'd fight a bear for you"

My lil sis is having some scary issues right now and I'm worried for her and praying with all my might.

I'm falling in love with blogging but at the same time I am enjoying life outside away from the computer more than I ever have in my life.But at the same time every time I have a problem with any of this computer stuff I am missing giving up on furthering my career in that department, but I am really good at mixing essential oils to provide healthy, aromatherapy benefits. So now I am really trying to put my focus into where my life is leading me.

One place it is leading me is back home. It will be a few months maybe but eventually I will be back in the 1st and 3rd capitol of my wonderful state. God I cannot wait.

I am also loving writing poetry again. I you haven't already please stop over to my blog Magical Writings and give me a holler and a follow.

And by the way to those that read my Weight Loss blog, I got myself weighed today and since I wrote that blog I have lost another 7 pounds. GO ME!!!

I guess I am going to say this is it for this week. Let me know what you think, I'd love this to become a link-up, but for now it's my way of keeping you informed. Blessings to you.

5 for Five

Hello everyone! Thanks for stopping by to check out MY 5 for Five! Linking up with Jessica and Jenn.

This is last weeks 5 for Five and this is how I did!

Green for Completion and Red for Failure

I didn't do so well last week but I will do better this week! I promise.

1. Finish 3/4 of my 7 days of... planner. You can find the document here to see if you like it. I did very, very well with this. It made it very hard to complete all of my goals though.

2. Finish reading Inferno. I finished it yesterday morning. I was so busy with 1. that I almost didn't finish. It was a good book but I'm going to say Dan Brown's worst yet, although it was very good.

3. Walk 3 times and exercise 3 times. I definitely got the walking done that I wanted to but as for actual exersice I only did 2 times and it was a very low intensity. I also ruined my diet this week, oops.

4. Draw something abstract. Nope, unless you count the horrible scribbling I made on a birthday box being mailed. This was a definite fail.

5. Make a button for my blog. I have only figured out have of the process and I didn't even purchase the stock photo, not sure its the one I want. Unfortunately I can't illustrate very well or I could make it myself. :(

Bonus. Organize my Documents. I got this done finally, so happy! Well I'm sure it could always use work and be better but it's pretty darn good right now.

And now for this week:
1. Organize poems into 3 prong folders. Share-able  Needs Editing, For My Eyes Only.

2. Eat no more than 2 Carbs per day with 1 bonus (donuts, cake, etc.) I hate eating carbs, I guess I should specify that by saying grains.

3. Edit the About Me and the contact detail on all the sites I use. I did most of FB yesterday and I'm going to make them all the same so it should be easy.

4. Purchase the stock photos I want. One for each blog and maybe one for my web-site but I doubt it.

5. Figure out how to turn the edited stock image into a button for my page. I didn't say finish it, obviously this is going to be a baby step process. But I am determined to do it myself.

Alright ladies and gents these are my goals this week. Click the link above if you want to get in on the fun. Have a great week!

Sunday Social (Wk 52)

Hey what's up? This is Jesyka and I'm doing another week at Sunday Social with Ashley and Neely. Go on over to there site and join the Link-up this week. If you've been thinking about it and haven't this is the week to get started because they have a huge give-away. I don't know how they come up with these questions because sometimes they don't pertain to me at all, but I'm gonna give it my best shot, as always. LOL

1. What is your favorite Social Media outlet? 

As much as I have tried to get into anything but Facebook, I haven't done so well. I'm not sure why, maybe I'm just not so comfortable with change. Plus I have very few friends on everything else and it seems they are all spread out. The common ground is still Facebook. I hardly ever see drama on mine so so far it's still fun to mess with when I am bored.

I also totally love Pinterest but there isn't a lot of chatting on there, just sharing pics you are interested in. I do it mainly for myself, to save things I like. It's way better than bookmarking and copy and paste. I do have all my accounts connected so if you see a post on Twitter that's where it came from, FB or Pinterest or My Blog.

2. Do you subscribe to any daily news reads? If so which ones?

This sounds very awful but no I do not, neither do I check any of them on the web. On Pulse, which I check whenever I give myself blog reading time I am subscribed to some Psycology and Technology News and if the title sounds interesting I will read it. But as for Fox, CNN and whoever else I have PTSD and I don't follow it.

3. What is your favorite magazine to have by the pool? 

My favorite magazine is Glamour but I usually just read a book.

4. What is your favorite summertime song?

Now see this doesn't apply to me. I like all my music, all the time. I've never thought of it as seasonal music. I do listen to more hip-hop/pop in the summer though as it helps boost those party time dance moves. I guess Katy Perry is exceptional in the summer.

5. What is the best summer concert you've been to?

Rock on the Range, in Columbus, OH, Skatopia, in Rutland, OH, X-Fest, in Huntington, WV and Hookahville, in Lawrence, OH. I haven't been to any of them for a while so hopefully I will get to at least one of them this year, it's already to late for 2 of them though. :(

Holding on or Letting go???

Alright this post is not going to be based on the political correct idea or what you should do, but on what I am feeling I should do. I listened to a lot of crap throughout my life about walking away and letting go when things aren't as they should be. But I don't want to let go ever again.

Here are a few examples of CRAP I read, and have even shared on Facebook. And yes in the back of my mind and thinking of my heart, I have been totally for this method.

via Positive Quotes on Facebook

(nothing against this page, I just needed a pic)

Yes there is definitely a limit on how much and how bad a person should be able to treat you but honestly for the last however many years I have been hateful and sad, I walked away from a lot of really good people for making mistakes. I keep doing it, every time someone makes me mad, or hurts my feelings.

Now that I am trying to completely start my life over, and yes I hope I find a few great friends, at this point I haven't. Basically I am realizing that if I want to have friends at all, I am going to have to accept the fact that people make mistakes. And yes sometimes they are horrible mistakes. Even I have made many, and maybe some people have walked away from me.

Also I would like to comment on this one. I actually had an experience with this and followed though with leaving all of them behind when my troubles were over. Not fun and to be very honest that's when I started walking away from people who screwed me over. However as I look back and sit here friendless (almost) I am realizing that by living so true to these words that I have lost everyone, including some very important people that I loved dearly.

via someone on fb

The reason all this is on my mind is because I recently had a friend of like 5 months make me completely irate. And for a few days I had to calm myself down. I felt like that person did what they did to intentionally upset me. I have had to realize that it had nothing to do with me, and I honestly feel like it has nothing to do with how they feel about me. I have always told myself that whoever did something hurtful or wasn't there when I needed them was because they didn't care about me, probably no one else, or even them self  But I have realized that may not always be true. Actually it almost never is if I think really hard because everyone I have hurt has always been people I love with all of my heart. It was just a stupid mistake, that had everything to do with me, and almost always ended up regretting but not even all of the time.

And I can finally say that my whole new outlook on how I want things to be is totally working for me. I want to be able to forgive people, no matter what. If I don't want to do it for them that's fine, I'll have to evaluate the situation as I am now and determine my best course of action. Should I hold on to that friendship or should let go and walk away. If I walk away every time I will still be sitting here lonely, losing friends the moment I make them. So this time I'm going to stay, for now. If it happens again I might walk away but everyone deserves a second chance, maybe 5, 10 or 50, who knows. No matter what you have to forgive for your own piece of mind. If not for them, do it for yourself.

via Positive Quotes on Facebook

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Breakfast of Champions, I Hope!

Oatmeal and Protein

First of all I need to say that this is something I have been thinking about, and I first made this recipe today. It is not tried and tested, yet. Like I said I have been thinking about it lately, because I could not stomach the protein shake, but really want to use it.

So here is what I came up with.

Yep, look just like Oatmeal. Which if you didn't know is probably the healthiest thing in your house if you aren't into health food. I love Oatmeal, it is whole grains, has a lot of protein and fiber which fills you up quickly and is very healthy as long as you don't add sugar. :)

Now hear is my little twist on your normal occasional breakfast fix.

BREAKFAST OF CHAMPIONS

OATS

1/2 cup of Oats

1 cup of water

1 minute in microwave

PROTEIN SHAKE

1 scoop of protein mix

1/4 to a 1/2 cup of water

(I used 1/2 but it was too runny, I had to add a little bit of Oats)

MIX TOGETHER & ADD

Stevia for sweetener

Cinnamon for flavor

Top with granola

(There is Granola pictured but I don't recommend it)

This mixture was a lot for me. I only ate about a 1/3 of it. It was not the greatest tasting meal in the world but I'm guessing if you are used to healthy foods then it probably won't bother you. I only ate a little though and went hours before I wanted anything else to eat. When I did I ate a peanut butter and apple butter sandwich on whole wheat bread. Not the greatest but it was the 2nd healthiest choice I could come up with. Later I will be eating the BREAKFAST OF CHAMPIONS again to hold me off till morning because it was very filling. I am going to eat this all week too see if I can shed some pounds. If nothing else it will definitely curb my appetite.

I also worked out for about 10 mins and walked a mile and a half, which took about 30 minutes.

I hope this works, I will definitely give an update next week sometime.

Thanks for reading, stop by for the update and leave some weight lose feedback that you might have.

Remember I am a normal girl, trying to lose normal weight, not a nutritious of any sorts.