It's 6 am and I just woke up from a dream. Some how I have been able to jolt myself enough to realize I have to use the bathroom which then forces my nightmare to end. I don't keep a dream journal because this rarely happens anymore, and well I've always just remembered the bad events anyway and occasionally the person's involved. This time it was my mom. She made a smart ass comment about my life and finances so I flipped my switch and got real violent on her. I beat her for a few minutes and then had her held down to the ground with my sexy heel (and by god it was hot) pressed into her chest telling her how easy it would be to just, let her go. I know, I know, I am crazy. And that is why I normally don't do this. But my blog is about reprogramming the mind, and after that, that is exactly what's needed.
So I sit here for a few minutes trying to remember what was going on before I freaked out, and of course I don't know. All I can remember is that we were laughing, smiling, and having a damn good time. So even though my mind reprogrammed itself so quickly into something negative, I knew that I could switch it back to positive thinking. It may not happen immediately but with a few trained thoughts, I should be well on my way.
So as I was training my brain to see that in a good light, I fell back to sleep and just remembered I started this, lol.
Basically what I did was look at what was happening in my dream. You don't have to know dream interpretation to interpret your dreams. In fact once you get the hang of it you will wonder why you ever thought you needed a book with definitions to explain your dreams for you. They are your dreams. If you can be honest with yourself and delve deep inside your mind, body and soul, you can find the meaning. And you can reprogram your thoughts into something positive. (I hope I am making sense).
Let's look at my dream. The part I remember, the part that woke me up was horrible. I was spending time with my mom and when I was leaving she made a comment about the way my life and finances were going. I must have felt that was very personal otherwise, would I have really got that upset? First off, even in my subconscious mind I think I should know that she has no business going where she can't compete. No offense to her please. I'm just saying thats probably what my dream mind was thinking. Second, if I look at it truthfully, what she said in my dream was what I have been wanting to say to myself. I just couldn't do it. My mom probably doesn't even notice these things because I don't share them. And yeah I am fine financially and in life but truthfully I have settled. I have become content and I don't have the confidence to really move forward. My dream was just me telling myself and showing how it made me feel, hence the violence, and pointing out that I wanted to move forward.
And also, it was pointing out that in real life my relationship with my mother is not very strong. I generally blame this on her, however as I am reprogramming my mind, I can admit that I am equally responsible now that I am a grown adult. So I feel my dream was spelling that out to me and telling me to reach out.
So instead of sitting here thinking that my mom isn't pleased and I almost killed her over it, I looked deeper until I found out the real underlying problem. Once I did this I could continue with my life and work on it positively, instead of thinking I was a horrible person, one for being violent and two for not getting what I deserve out of life.
Try to remember this the next time you have a bad dream.
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