Have you ever felt this way? I'm sure everyone has at one time or another, in one form or another.
You say, 'what could you ever mean?, there's different forms?' Well yes, of course there is, we just usually don't experience any except for maybe getting turned down for a date or possibly a job you were looking forward to. But I have discovered since the turn of the Internet and Social Media that at times you may feel this awful turn down called Rejection. Ah ha, now you understand. Good, because I am writing this and hoping that I am not alone.
I have been using the internet since I was 13. However when I was thirteen we didn't have Facebook or Twitter or any of the other smaller social sites that have been used in the last 10 years. So all we had back then were email and chat rooms and well if you were in one you usually had conversation with others and sometimes made friends or you were like me and only talked to the friends you had in real life because someone told you it was too dangerous to 'meet people online'. Essentially that saying wasn't to deter you from talking to people online, but only from meeting the people in actual real life. Still not always safe. TAKE PRECAUTIONS before doing so.
Anyway, skip forward a few years and I grow up to about 27 and when I go back to school I see some girls in class using MySpace. I create one and I add some people from my class and I fall in love with editing my page and expressing myself. I eventually add people from my past, meet some new people who have it and even go on a few dates because I was fairly new in town and single and I found it to be a great way to meet friends. And then I discover Facebook. Well I heard about it and kinda checked it out but I really liked MySpace, I actually miss it. But Facebook became popular with everyone, even businesses and well everyone had one, so why shouldn't I?
Skip forward another 3 or 4 years and I am always checkin my page. Sharing pictures and Liking status' all the time. And yes I accepted people I didn't know, and I found this huge network of social sites and discovered other means of learning and I started looking up to someone. There are a few people that I learn from daily but this one person reminded me so much of me and I just knew that we were destined to be friends, and well since I made other friends online I particularly knew I would become friends with her. I at least expected her to be privy to my liking and to be nice to me. Maybe answer a question or 2, add me as a friend and hit Like on something I said or did, subscribe to my YouTube channel or check out my new website or this here blog since I asked her to do any one of the things because she was so important to everything I have started up in my life these past couple months. She never did any of it, and the response that I got was very negative and rude when I simply complimented her in the very most special way I have ever done anyone.
Now here I am. I am Rejected. I'm not sure where to go from here. Do I just keep being a avid fan of this persons or do I let her go completely. I guess in a way I feel weird that I even feel this because I don't KNOW this girl, and she definitely doesn't have a clue who I am. Maybe she's to totally busy to even be nice to someone when they are looking up her. Maybe she has too many, or a few better FANS. I hope that in my journey I don't come off the wrong way to anyone. I always try to be nice when commenting and returning the favor when Friending or Subscribing. I guess I just expected the same. Because of that I have this tare in my soul of rejection, and now I no longer know if I can Follow this person. One thing I do know is I'm going to find me another person to admire. And well I guess with time maybe I'll learn her secret ways and have my own collection of fans, enough to where I can pick and choose to be nice too. But that's not me so I guess my perception of her wasn't exactly what I had in my mind.
Everyone please be considerate to other people you meet, you never know how it will make them feel.
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